Four Month Post-Op Appointment - No More Pain!

I saw my doctor for my four month post-op appointment and everything is looking great. Here is my x-ray (11-19-14):

There isn't much to see here (haha...) just a missing bone. Everything looks as it should.

Here is the bottom of my foot four months after surgery and a close up of the scar.

As crazy as it sounds, I kind of want the scar to stay there. It is a reminder of the journey I've been on!

Here is a shot of the side of my foot. Not much swelling anymore!

I don't know when exactly it happened, but one day last week, I realized there was no pain in my foot. I was rolling through my foot normally and didn't feel uncomfortable.

Is this real life?

I don't know how it transitioned so quickly, but two weeks ago I was worried things might never be the same and I would always have discomfort, and last week I realized the pain was gone! What an answered prayer! God is so good (and so is my surgeon). :)

There is still some numbness on the top of my toe (maybe 25%), and there is definitely discomfort when I try to stretch my foot too far (like when I'm trying to reach for something on the top shelf of my pantry). But that pain is getting less each day. I can't tell you how excited this makes me!

My doctor said to continue with low impact exercises for 6-8 more weeks and then I can start transitioning back into running (not that I was a runner, but... it would be nice to say that I am able to run). 

He said the range of motion in my left foot is the same as my right - crazy, right? Also, I can wear normal, flat-soled shoes without special inserts. 

Things are definitely looking up, and I am so happy to be able to share this progress. Thank you to those of you who have been encouraging me along this journey!

Thanks for reading - I'll update again when I'm up and RUNNING! 

Almost Four Months Post-Op: Walking (somewhat) Normally

It's going on four months since my sesamoidectomy and life is slowly returning to normal. I am wearing supportive shoes or Dr. Scholl's inserts as much as possible and wearing house shoes around the house.

The ball of my foot is sore almost constantly and it is still difficult to roll through the middle of my foot when walking instead of the outside of my foot as I have trained myself to do over the years to cope with the pain. Now it's less of a pain-thing, though, and more of a habit that I need to break.

My foot still feels stiff and my movement is limited. I can walk more quickly than I could about a month ago, but it comes at a price. After a day on my feet I am eager to prop them up for a while and rest.

Although it feels sore and stiff, I do not sense the pain I used to have prior to surgery, which I am really happy about. But I still feel like I have a long way to go before I return to "normal."

It takes effort to stay positive as I wish I could just sprint every once and a while in this cooler weather, just to say that I can. One struggle has been not having as much energy, or the endorphins that are so great when you are consistently working out. I feel more lethargic and less motivated to stay on top of my health, but I know it is just a season.

My next appointment is in about 3 weeks. I am eager to hear the doctor's perspective on how my healing is progressing, and also to ask when I can start easing back into some of my favorite work-outs like YOGA!!

If you're walking this road with me, hang in there! I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Returning to Normalcy - NO MORE BOOT!

I started walking without my boot last week - a little over 2 months post-op.

It was scary at first and painful. I guess most of my discomfort was from not knowing what the new feelings were and whether or not it was normal.

But after about a week being out of my boot, I can finally say... I think my foot just might heal and be pain-free!

I'm not there yet, but I'm finally hopeful and can say with confidence that my foot is feeling more like a normal foot every day.

Thank you, Lord!

Right now, I don't have pain when I walk, but my foot does get tired after a while and feels achy. Also, there is still a lot of numbness and I am unable to fully curl my toes.

My current limitations: no running or even speed walking, no yoga. My exercise must either be riding a bike or swimming, which isn't the end of the world.

I can't wear "normal" shoes... I have to make sure they have great support. No flip flops and no heels for an eternity.

My next checkup is in a little over a month which will put me at almost four months post-op.

Until then, I'm going to enjoy my progress, take it easy, and keep thinking positive thoughts! Things are looking up!

2 Months Post-Op - From Desperation to Belief

After about two weeks of fighting my incisional infection with Keflex and two antibiotic shots, the infection went away! My skin is still really tender in that spot and seems purple. I think it is just new skin trying to grow. 

I have had many ups and downs lately. My foot still feels very strange and unfamiliar, and some days it hurts worse than it did before surgery. My doctor said the pain is normal and should subside in a few months. 

There have been pretty bad days where I feel upset, hopeless, and confused - wishing I had never gone through with the surgery. But there are other days, like today, when I feel hopeful that healing is happening, albeit very slowly, and I just have to take it one "step" at a time. Pun intended. 

Activity updates: At my last appointment (just before 2 months post-op), I was told to slowly transition out of my boot while wearing supportive shoes, but no "mall-walking." So I guess that means no speed walking, which is pretty much my M.O. I am taking it slow, and today is my very first day to wear tennis shoes! ON BOTH FEET! 

The pain of slipping into a tennis shoe this morning was very intense. It hurt to bend my foot to get it in. But once I got the shoe laced up, it felt better and I think I can handle walking around like this, at least for part of the day today. I will get back in my boot when (or if?) the pain sets back in. 

For now, my exercise must either be riding a bike or swimming. I actually swam for the first time since my surgery last week and I think it helped a lot! It felt amazing to do some sort of physical activity and it also seemed to give my foot a little more mobility.

 After 2-3 more months I can begin speed walking and possibly jogging, depending on how my follow-up appointment goes. No yoga for a while - too much pressure on my toe. This is a major bummer! I LOVE YOGA.

Lately the pain has felt like a dull throbbing achey-ness. Around the surgical site, there is still a little bit of a burning sensation where the new skin is growing. I also have pain that wraps around the inside of my foot.

There is still numbness on the top of my foot down through my big toe. My doctor said they probably wrapped one of my boots too tightly at the beginning of this whole ordeal and it did a little bit of nerve damage. Hopefully this will go away (it seems to get a teeny bit better every day, but I HATE this feeling. When I put my finger on my big toe, I can't feel it and it freaks me out).

Here are pictures of my foot today - 2 months after surgery. 

As odd as it sounds, I kind of hope the scar stays there. This has been such an ordeal (and will be such an accomplishment in the long run) that I want to remember it and how it has changed me.

It is still pretty swollen compared to the other foot (and off-colored...kind of purple-ish red).

I can curl my toes a lot more, but as you can see, there is still a long way to go!

Top view of my feet:

In summary, this has been a heck of a ride so far. The doctor's reports are good and seem favorable for a total recovery. I am setting my sights on that and choosing to stay as positive as I can be every day. 

Thanks for reading. If you are on this journey with me, take care of yourself and try to stay positive! We can do this!

10 Days Post Infection and...More Antibiotics

Well, I was so excited to be off of antibiotics, but after my checkup they put me back on more. They said there is still some infection there and that it takes a long time for the foot to heal because of the poor circulation. So, they prescribed more meds and gave me another (painful!) shot in my booty.

I think it is getting better slowly, but I really want to see my actual doctor. I'm going to try to get them to let me move my appointment up just to make sure everything is healing correctly. 

At the last appointment, they told me I would be in my black walking boot for at least two more weeks (this will put me at 8 1/2 weeks post-op) and then we would talk about moving into an orthotic type of shoe that I will wear on both feet. They are beautiful, let me tell you.

Can't WAIT to wear those puppies (insert sarcasm HERE).

Hopefully I will have an update SOON because I am calling tomorrow to see if I can push up my next appointment. 

One Week after Onset of Incisional Infection - No more antibiotics!

About a week ago, I found out I had an incisional infection in my foot.

They prescribed Cephalexin (antibiotics) and told me to use a warm compress on my foot several times a day to get the blood flowing to that area. They said this would also help the antibiotics take better effect.

I finished my antibiotics yesterday, thank goodness. They made me feel crummy.

They also gave me a big ole' shot in my booty with more antibiotics. Apparently the infection was pretty bad. Most likely it was caused from sweat or other bacteria from my foot that made its' way into the incision site after they removed the stitches. But we aren't entirely sure what happened. The P.A. actually told me she probably should have taken a better look after they removed the stitches and taken the scabs off so she could get a better look at how my foot was healing. Oh well, I guess hindsight is 20/20.

I was told that the less I walk on it, the faster it will heal, which has been extremely difficult because I have been planning a huge surprise birthday party for my husband (which was yesterday and went GREAT)! But I know I have put too much stress on my foot as it is swollen and a little purple. I'm trying to be good now that all the hoopla is over. It was worth it.

I go in tomorrow for a checkup to make sure the infection is gone. It definitely looks better, but it's still a little pink.

I have no idea what to expect from here on out as far as my healing timeline. I don't know if I'll be in the boot for a while longer or not. Anxious to hear. 

More updates to come. Hopefully with good news. 

Incisional Infection!

I posted yesterday about some "blisters" that were around my incision site. I called the doctor to tell them and after sending a pic in to them, they said it looks like I have an incisional infection. 

So...

I'm on cephalexin (an antibiotic) that I take FOUR TIMES a day for a week, and in the meantime I'm back on my scooter. :( a disappointing day for sure. 

This all happened on Friday late afternoon so I couldn't make it in to their office. I'm supposed to go in first thing Monday morning to have it looked at. 

Here is a close up on the infection...

WARNING!

WARNING!

GROSS PICTURE AHEAD!

The yellowish/brown stuff is actually the glue they put over the incision site after removing my stitches. 

The infection is the reddish white circle with pink all around it. All of my skin is peeling around it and it HURTS!!

I just thought it was supposed to be painful around the incision site for a while. But yesterday I had the inclination that maybe the pain was more intense than it should be. 

Glad I called it in.

The sesamoid saga continues...

One Month Post - Op and BLISTERS! Ouch

My foot has been hurting a lot more the past few days. I even went back on the dreaded knee scooter yesterday because the pain was so bad. But it didn't feel internal. It felt like it was around the incision site.

I took my boot and sock off last night and examined the area that was hurting me. It turns out there were blisters forming where the stitches had been removed. I guess the tape they stretched across the cut after removing the stitches was rubbing the area and agitating it. It hurts so bad! It's a burning, stinging pain paired with the numbness that's still there, which just feels uncomfortable and weird.

I have put antibiotic ointment over the area and am letting my foot have some fresh air instead of keeping it wrapped in a sock all day. Hopefully this will help soon.

The ball of my foot is still pretty swollen and I can't bend my toes too much.

I can't tell if there's much internal pain right now because the pain from the blisters is all I can think about.

My next check-up is in a little less than a week. Not sure what to expect but eager to hear how everything is progressing.

One Month Post-Op Appointment - Scooter Be-Gone!

Warning: Graphic pictures ahead!

This check-up appointment included:

- Getting rid of my blue shoe

- Getting my stitches out

- Getting a new boot

Taking off my blue shoe was amazing. I haven't been allowed to remove it, so I welcomed the opportunity for my foot to feel fresh air. 

It is harder to tell in pictures, but my left foot is a lot more swollen than my right and my big toe is pretty enlarged. Also my left foot seems shapeless compared to the right. It's like one big puffy rectangle to me. (My toe is NOT black and blue - it's my crazy paint job. Please ignore...). Also, you can still see where I had to write "Yes" on the day of my operation to confirm that was the correct foot on which to operate. 

Here is another angle:

Getting my stitches out... well... this is how it started:

P.A.: "Are you on your pain meds?"

Me: "Um...no. I haven't been for a while. Should I be?"

P.A.: (Grimacing) "Do you have any with you?"

Me: (Again) "Um...no. Should I?

P.A.: "Well, this is going to hurt."

Me:    :-|

So, ya... that part was no fun. Here is my foot before the stitches were taken out. You can see white marks around my toes from not seeing the light of day. They are dry and itchy.

Here is my foot after the stitches are out:

The nurse put some stinky kind of glue over the incision site to hold everything together just in case it needed it, and then put the four pieces of tape across it as extra security. She said not to pick at them but just let them come off whenever they do.

Then the good news:

P.A.: "You can shower without anything on your foot tomorrow."

(Angels singing)

Also I can sleep barefoot now! Which will just feel heavenly.

These are the instructions I left this visit with:

Gradually increase the weight I put on my left foot using crutches or a walker. If I need to walk a long distance for some reason, I should use my scooter. 

Their suggestion was to use 25% of my weight for 2 days, then if there was no pain increase to 50% for two days, then 75% for two days, then finally 100% (all while in my new boot). If at any point I experience pain, I am to decrease the weight for another day before adding more. The big goal at this point is to be walking without crutches in a week. 

This is my new boot:

I was a little discouraged after leaving, because for some reason I had pictured magically standing up on both feet and walking out of the office while my husband tried to do tricks on my scooter behind me. 

When I got home I experimented with putting weight on my foot and was surprised that it was easier than I thought. 

The next day, I walked around the house without crutches and put most of the weight in the heel of my left foot. It was awesome!!! I cannot tell you how liberating it is to be free from my scooter. No more 5-point turns when trying to leave a room, no more wheeling over squeaky baby toys, and no more handlebars sliding down on me unexpectedly. 

Currently my foot still feels slightly numb in some areas, but for the most part feeling has returned. I can lift my big toe up higher than a few days ago, but scrunching my toes is still quite a challenge. Also, it seems like if I were to poke my foot with a needle, it would pop. I know that sounds gross, but it feels swollen like there's no room to spare. 

My foot felt tired after trudging around in my boot today, and a pack of ice really helped it feel better. 

But as far as pain goes, there really isn't any unless I put too much weight on the ball of my foot.

My next appointment is in two weeks.

Things are looking up!

Now for that shower...

3 Weeks Post-Op and I can curl my toes!

I am finally getting a lot more feeling back in my toes. I can curl my toes slightly and can raise my big toe. These are two big accomplishments for me!

There are still a few numb spots around my toes, but I am now hopeful that it is temporary and will go away soon!

I have also put the smallest amount of weight on my heel for balancing purposes around the house and it doesn't hurt at all, it just makes my foot tired.

5 more days until I'm off my scooter! It can't come soon enough.

First Post-Op Appointment

My first post-op appointment after my sesamoidectomy went well. 

Me and all of my scooter buddies in the waiting room. 

I was so excited to go in to see how my foot was doing, but I was especially excited to take off all of the bandages and let my foot breathe for a little while!

This is my foot after it was first unwrapped ~ 2 weeks after surgery.

You can still see the faint purple marker lines from where I wrote "yes" before the surgery - as in, "yes, this is the right foot to slice open." Also, as you have probably noticed, the nurse said "It looks like you have skittles on your toes!" It was my attempt to get my notoriously dry doctor to chuckle before surgery, but instead he said - "What happened?"

My foot still looked pretty swollen - especially my toes and ankle, but it felt really small to me. I can't explain it. I guess since it had been smashed under all of those bandages my foot looked a little slimmer than usual. 

WARNING. Gross pictures ahead.

Here is the incision site:

Yuck! That's a lot of stitches!

After the nurse unwrapped my foot, they took me back for x-rays. I was definitely nervous about this part because I was afraid they would ask me to put weight on my foot. They didn't, which I was so grateful for, but they did ask me to point my foot up towards the sky, and that hurt a lot. It was like an electric shock.

Here are my x-rays. Compare them to the diagram beneath it to see if you can tell that my lateral sesamoid is gone. Can you see the bright white spot in the red circle? That is my medial sesamoid. If you look close enough, you can see a dark spot to the left of it where the lateral sesamoid used to be. 

When the P.A. walked in, she looked at my x-rays and said "YOUR SESAMOID IS MISSING!" Then we both freaked out about where it could have gone. That was fun.

She walked over to my foot and started touching it. This made me very nervous, but I didn't really feel any pain. Then she started gently rubbing my toes, and this felt like HEAVEN. I was still a nervous wreck, but for the most part nothing hurt. I can't tell you how wonderful and weird this felt. On one hand, the pressure felt amazing, but on the other, there was still numbness on several parts of my foot. The combination of these two sensations was crazy and very hard to explain. 

She grazed the incision site once, and there was a shock of pain, but then it went away.

She said the numbness and tingling was normal, but that I should start touching my toes and wiggling them to remind my body that they were there. 

And then, like music to my ears, she said, "let's see you back in 10 days and hopefully get you off of that scooter and into a boot!" Woo hoo!!! I can't wait. That's also when they will take the stitches out. If it goes as planned, this means that the time on my scooter will only be a total of 3 1/2 weeks instead of 4, which doesn't sound like much until you're actually in my situation! It's as sweet as an early Christmas present. 

This is my new setup. The bandages are gone with the exception of one layer over the incision site. Then they put this silky sock over my foot to keep any debris from getting close to the stitches. I can finally move my ankle! 

My foot gains a little more feeling every day. I am continually challenging myself to find positive things to focus on rather than the "what ifs" and the frustrations that come with getting around on a clunky scooter in a small apartment. Here are some of my positives: I am on my way to healing! I have great doctors taking care of me who know what they are doing! And I am gaining an appreciation for the smaller things in life like taking a shower whenever you want and being able to clean a sink full of dishes (thank you hubby for doing so many of these small things for me!). 

More to come after post-op appointment #2. 

Thanks for reading!

Day 12 Post-Op

Recovery seems to be going well. I am finally getting the hang of my knee scooter and have been off pain meds for about 5 days now.

I added a little carrying pouch to my scooter so I could transport things more easily around my apartment. If I'm ever out in public, little kids seem to think my ride is pretty sweet.

I can't WAIT to get to my post op appointment this Friday (in 3 days) to see how everything looks, and especially to get all of the bandages off for the first time. My foot is yearning for freedom!

I noticed that the bandaging is keeping my foot turned inward, and it has been bothering me a lot. My uncle is a physical therapist and thinks it is probably purposeful and is keeping the distance that my tendons have to stretch smaller so they can heal faster. That sounds good to me. But still, it's annoying.

I set my foot down very gently on the ground to check things out. I put the tiniest amount of pressure on my foot and was amazed at how different it feels. I thought I would only feel changes around the ball of my foot and toes, but I could feel change all the way up to my ankle. I wasn't expecting that.

The way I described the feeling to my husband was that it felt like my size 8 foot had size 4 muscles. It was a very tight, uncomfortable, and painful feeling.

I can't yet tell if any of my previous pain is gone, because I really only felt it when I was putting pressure on that foot. Two and a half more weeks (fingers crossed) until I can put weight on my foot!

One Week Post-Op

It's been one week since I had my lateral sesamoid removed. I am making a point of celebrating today, because it has been a challenging recovery - maybe more emotionally than physically. It is very hard to let others take care of you. I am making each week a big mile marker so that I have something to look forward to.

I've been off my pain meds for about 48 hours, though I considered taking some yesterday when I accidentally slipped off my scooter and landed on my bandaged foot... OW. That hurt pretty bad - it felt like a shock wave rippled through my body up to my shoulders. The pain lasted for a few hours, but after sleeping it off I feel like I am in a good spot. I considered going in to get x-rays, but I'll be doing that any way at my first post-op appointment in one week, so I think it will be ok to wait.

The pain meds still seem to be taking a little bit of a toll on me as my appetite is not back and my stomach is giving me a little bit of a hard time.

My pain level is pretty low right now - it's mostly just discomfort and some tingling that remains. My toes feel like they're asleep, and it's probably partly due to how tight my bandages are wrapped. My heel and ankle actually feel bruised because I can't bend it. The bandages have stayed super tight against that part of my foot for a week now and the pain is setting in. It's hard to rest my foot on any surface simply because of the bruising on my heel.

I was able to shower two days post-op. I just have to make sure my foot is completely covered with trash bags and tape to ensure that no water makes it to my bandages. Also, I have to sit on a shower chair and use an extendable shower head, which I found at Target for a pretty good deal. Showers are nice and help lift my spirits a little.

Here is a picture of my foot when it's ready for shower-time.

The red part is actually the string from the trash bag, NOT blood...

I still haven't seen any part of my foot and won't until my first check up one week from now. I'm interested to see what it looks like...

I needed a little bit of happiness for my foot because the boot they have me in is totally unflattering. So... I jazzed it up a little...

Now when I look at my foot, it makes me a little happier. Also, I keep reminding myself that I CHOSE to have this surgery, and that total healing is on the horizon. I just have to keep pushing through.

In the meantime, my family and especially my HUBBY deserve HUGE PROPS. They have been amazing at taking care of me and our little 9 month old, Molly. 

If you are considering this surgery, make sure you have a helper who can be with you almost 24/7. It is a lot more difficult to do things than I imagined. One of the challenges for me has been using the scooter in a small apartment. It's really hard to go anywhere, and especially to turn around in the bathroom.

My best friend Mollie sent me a care package in the mail which really cheered me up. I'm mentioning it because I KNOW she'll be the first one to read this blog post and she totally deserves a shout out. 

So overall, the hardest part for me has been accepting the help of others and giving up some things that I usually do with my little one, like rocking her to sleep and preparing her food, which, don't get me wrong, it's nice to have others do it for you, but when you can't do it, you kinda wish you could. 

If you're looking for more information about this operation, I found another great blog for you to read that has brought me a lot of hope: http://kimsfootstory.wordpress.com/.

She's been through the surgery and is a couple of years past the full recovery, and testifies that there is no more pain!! Woo hoo, Kim! You go, girl!

I'm here for anyone who has questions or concerns about this surgery/condition/or anything else I can help with. You are not in this alone!

Thanks for reading. 

Day 3 - Post Op

The surgery went very smoothly. I found out more information about what they actually did. It was coded as:

Lateral sesamoid removal and plantar plate restructure

My doctor and his staff were phenomenal. The best of the best. Before they took me back to receive anesthesia, my parents brought my daughter back to me and my husband, and my doctor picked her up and played with her. It was so cute.

I had to get pricked twice before they got my IV in, but it wasn't too bad. 

While operating, they wanted me on my stomach so they could go in from the bottom of my foot. This meant that I would have a breathing tube in and would be completely asleep during the procedure.

When I went in to the operating room, California Dreamin' was playing on the speakers. I felt kind of a warmth wash over me and I asked if they had started the anesthesia. I think the doctor said yes, and the next thing I remember I was waking up in the recovery room. 

Dr. Brodsky said that everything went smoothly and there were no surprises. Now I have this lovely thing on my foot where it will stay 24/7 until further notice. 

I painted my toe nails all different colors to try to make my doctor laugh, and to give him something interesting to look at. He looked at my toenails questioningly and said "what happened here?"

You probably can't tell much from the pic, but my toes are swollen and there is a lot of gauze underneath my foot. 

The pain has been more intense than I was expecting. At first it was kind of a tingling/burning sensation. 

When I woke up the first day post-op, I told my husband that my foot felt like a blowtorch and all of the fire was coming out of my big toe. Thankfully, the pain has greatly decreased from that point, but it is still hurting pretty badly. 

The pain ranges from stinging to burning to throbbing to numb tingling. It's a little bit of everything. 

I go back and forth from my roller scooter to crutches. The roller scooter is more comfortable but less convenient in small spaces as it is hard to turn around. 

I keep my foot elevated most of the time as high as I can get it, and I try to keep it straight up and down. If I turn it to the left or right, the pain sets back in pretty quickly. 

I wasn't able to sleep much the first night, but I remembered I hadn't been taking my Phenergan along with my hydrocodone. The combination is supposed to increase pain control and help me sleep. I slept a lot better after implementing this for night 2. 

I am drinking a ton of liquids and eating whatever I want, although my throat was pretty scratchy after having the breathing tube removed. 

When I try to move my toes around, there is a searing pain in the ball of my foot. I guess I should probably steer away from doing that for a while. 

The numbness is slowly decreasing and I am finally able to feel more of my foot. For the past few days my foot has felt how your mouth feels when you have it deadened at the dentist. I would say as of day 3, probably 30-40% of my foot still feels totally numb. 

The pain meds make me kind of loopy, but I'm trying not to miss a dose. It definitely helps to stay on top of the pain.

My first post-op appointment is in about two weeks. Dr. Brodsky said they probably won't remove the stitches until the second post op appt in about a month since the tissue on the bottom of my foot is so thick and will require more time to heal. 

As far as bathing goes, I'm allowed to shower using a shower chair and a shower hose as long as my foot is completely wrapped in a trash bag or waterproof covering of some sort. I'm hoping to embark on the challenge today. I think a shower could lift my spirits!

It's hard being on the couch all day, but I am so grateful for all of the help around me. My husband, mom, dad, and grandmother have really been great! They are wrangling my little 9 month old all day so I can rest and get well. I can't wait until I can run around and play with her as much as I want!

More updates to come. What specific questions do you have for me? Thanks for reading. 

Removal of Lateral Sesamoid in Foot (Avascular Necrosis/Stress Fracture of the Lateral Sesamoid)

Several of you have commented that you would like more information about treating a fractured/dying sesamoid bone with surgery. I have decided to go through with surgery, myself, and will be updating everyone through this blog. My surgery is tomorrow (July 10).

Here is what I know so far:

Condition

Stress Fracture on Lateral Sesamoid in my left foot 

(One doctor said this is a form of avascular necrosis. The bone has been decaying and fragments of it are finding their way to other parts of my foot).

It is more common for the medial sesamoid to have a stress fracture than the lateral sesamoid.

What is a Sesamoid?

A sesamoid bone is a bone embedded with a tendon. Your kneecap (patella) is an example of a sesamoid. It helps give movement to other bones.

Onset

My doctor said with this particular bone, a stress fracture usually occurs over a long period of time - lots of jumping, running, etc., rather than from a specific event. For me, this was probably a combination of things like drill team in high school and P90X Plyometrics. 

Symptoms

The pain became gradually intense/severe with burning and stinging sensations. The pain dissipated with anti-inflammatories and rest, and remained a dull, aching pain for three years. Any light to moderate physical exercise would cause more intense and prolonged pain. 

The pain wraps around the side of my foot. I feel a majority of the pain on the ball of my foot, but sometimes I feel it in my big toe and even on the top of my foot.

Conservative Treatment

For three years I have tried treating my injury with anti-inflammatories, refraining from physical activity, and wearing orthotics. Sometimes these methods would alleviate the pain, but it has never gone away and still causes me pain every day. 

Further Treatment (Surgery)

After three years of pain and several different opinions, I have decided to go through with surgery. Here is what I know about the surgery as of now:

They will remove my lateral sesamoid and re-route the tendons that went over that bone to go over the medial sesamoid.

The surgery is outpatient surgery. I will receive anesthesia and will be on my stomach for the procedure. They will make a small incision on the ball of my foot. The surgery should last about an hour.

Pain medications prescribed: Hydrocodone for pain and Phenergan for nausea.

Recovery

I will be on a knee-roller (crutches are also an option) for 4-6 weeks then a walking boot for 4-6 weeks. 

I will post again with more updates hopefully a day or two after surgery. 

Please feel free to leave any comments or questions you may have! I have greatly benefitted from everyone's feedback and support. It is very helpful to share stories with others who have similar pain. Together we will find healing!

Update on My Condition and New Findings

Hello, friends!
I am so glad that so many of you have found my blog! I hope it has been helpful in at least some capacity.

I wanted to update everyone on my situation now that our baby is here and almost 4 months old! I have a few minutes of my own to write so HERE GOES!

I still have pain in my left foot from what I believed to be a P90X injury in 2011. The pain is less severe than it has been, but pain, nonetheless, and I'm very tired of having it! Quick recap - The first orthopedic doctor I saw said I have AVN (avascular necrosis) of the sesamoid, which means there has been a loss of blood flow to that bone. His take was that if I wait it out, the bone would be absorbed by my foot and heal itself (really?), OR I could have surgery.

I wanted another opinion so I saw another specialist last week (there was a VERY big gap in time from the first appointment until this one because of the arrival of our new baby!). The specialist's name is Dr. Brodsky at Baylor Dallas. Apparently one of the best! I am very grateful that my physical therapist uncle recommended me to him.

After reviewing my xrays and MRIs, Dr. Brodsky said I have a stress fracture on my sesamoid bone. He said most likely it was repeated pressure on that point that eventually fractured it (probably P90X plyometrics- talk about killer!). He said there are two non-urgent options:

1. Get a custom-made orthotic to relieve the pressure on that part of my foot.

2. Have surgery.

He said even with the orthotic, it is advisable to refrain from high impact activities (running, jumping, etc.), and that if I want to eventually regain those abilities, I should have the surgery.

Yuck.

But at least there is hope!

He said the surgery is easy - in and out with only a local anesthetic. I would be on crutches for about a month and then in a boot for 3 or 4 months.

So, I feel like I should definitely have the surgery, but my question now is timing. A four month old baby does not make things much easier! But it would probably be easier with one baby than down the line when we have 2 or 3.

Anyways, there's my update! Thanks to everyone for sharing your stories - I know I have benefitted from hearing other perspectives and reading your encouragement! One of the ladies who posted has started a Sesamoid Support group on facebook if you're interested. I think it's pretty cool!

Stay strong, be positive, and be grateful for the little things! Praying healing for everyone out there.

Taylor

Avascular Necrosis of the Sesamoid

I wanted to write about a condition I have been dealing with in order to help others who are facing the same thing. After a lot of searching, I realized there's not a whole lot of good information out there and I want to prevent others from being discouraged, and let you know that you're not alone! So if you've stumbled upon my site while searching for help, here is what I have learned.

Condition: Avascular Necrosis of the Sesamoid
(This means one of the little sesamoid bones in your foot is decaying).

Onset: After visiting an orthopedic specialist, I found out this is a very random and unpredictable injury. In my case, I landed on my foot the wrong way during a P90X Plyometrics workout.

After the initial injury, the onset of pain was gradual, until one day it became unbearable. I discontinued my workout program and stayed on the couch frequently with an ice pack. Ibuprofen alleviated the pain slightly, but not much.

I did not immediately go to the doctor. I didn't want to be a wimp and thought I could wait it out.

After a year of waiting and altering my workouts (swimming in the summer and short walking stints in the winter), the pain had gone from a 10 to a 6, and I was tired of waiting for it to go away completely.

Diagnosis: Required foot x-rays which helped the doctor know to do an MRI. The MRI showed that one of my sesamoid bones was in fact decaying. I did not want to pay for an MRI or any doctor's bills, but the diagnosis actually gave me peace of mind because I finally knew what was going on in my foot!

(If you happen to be in the DFW area, check out Texas Orthopedic Specialists. I had Dr. Modlinski, and he's GREAT! He also looks like Jon Hamm, which is a plus).

Treatment: Two options: 1 - Wait it out and let the bone die or 2 - Surgery.

As with many situations, surgery should only be a last resort. The doctor recommended that I give it 6 more months while wearing some specialized pads on my feet (shown below). He said my bone was in "hospice care" and our goal was to make it as comfortable as possible while it was dying. When it's dead, your body absorbs it (weird!) and makes do with it being gone. But until the eventual death, it's a painful road.

After he told me to wear these foot pads, I was a little skeptical and disheartened. I hadn't been able to run in a year and suffered emotionally from not being able to workout and have those good endorphins going through my body! How would foot pads make that much of a difference?

At first, they didn't. But I kept on, every day, and sure enough they are helping a lot right now. Here is my experience with the pads:

My doctor recommended "Dancer's Pads" which have a cutout that you place around the sesamoid area to alleviate pressure.

The first ones I tried were the ones the doctor gave me: HAPAD Dancer pads. (I only wear one on the hurting food and wear nothing on the other).

My experience with these was not so great. They are a really dense material and not very comfortable or plushy. But, what is great about them is that you can stick them directly to your shoe and it stays there until you decide to remove it. You can get one for every pair of shoes and never have to worry about remembering to wear them. My doctor did recommend them, so even though they didn't work for me, they might work for you. You can order them here for $7/pair.

Since I wasn't super happy with the HAPADs, I kept researching and found Dr. Jill's Gel Dancer's Pads.

These are available in two different thicknesses - regular or thick. I thought since my pain was so bad I would order the thick. It seemed to make sense to me. When I started wearing them, I loved the texture and comfort but the thickness was really hard to deal with. They rubbed on my foot in a harsh way and actually pulled some skin off (ouch!). But, I loved everything else about them so I ordered the regular thickness and they worked GREAT. 

They are reusable as long as you wash them with soap and water after each use (I didn't believe that they would remain sticky, but I've been using the same pad for 3 months and it still works just as well as it did on day one).

I also love that you can order only one foot instead of a pair. 

The only downside is that you have to remember to put it on your foot every day, unlike the HAPAD that stays in your shoe. 

Overall, this is the winning pad for me! I wear it every day and it has brought my pain from a 6 to a 3. You can buy it here for $11.99 for two. I can also work out easily in this pair with little extra pain. 

Here's one more helpful thing I found: 

It's a sesamoid relief sleeve. I ordered one so I could have something to wear when I was barefoot around the house. There are also two sizes available for this product (small and large). I bought a small first (I wear a women's 8.5). I love the design but the big toe sleeve is a little too small for my foot. When I do wear it, it works for a period of time until my big toe says "no more!"

I ordered the large which fit a little better but not perfectly. I still love this sleeve though, because it gives me options. You can buy it here for $16.95.

Final thoughts:

This condition HURTS really bad. No one else I know has gone through this or even heard of it, so I don't have anyone to sympathize with, but if you are going through this, message me! Ask me a million questions! I'll help you as best as I can. It has taken a while (about 15 months), but my foot is getting better every day.

Hang in there, be smart in your exercising, and find a pad that fits your foot! This will make all the difference in the world.

Hope this has been helpful. :)